Hope Remains

I stepped outside, my heart sank.

Snow drifts to my knees...

Like the drifts around my heart,

Yes, the ones I've tried to hide.

Cold and high, they seem so unbearable

And, that, for I'm alone.

I wish you were here...

But then I wish you never were.

One scoop, two scoops....

I am growing weary.

A love hate relationship:

The peace of possession,

But to live in and possess it,

I grow weary, though,

At times so safe and secure.

I wish you were here...

But then I wish you never were.

I hate my dependence,

Snowfall does not need me.

The relation is all one side and yet, it sticks.

Snow never caring, always cold;

I always give my heart,

Oh I desire it could care.

I wish I you were here...

But then I wish you never were.

One difference of the snow...

There is no anxiety of when it may appear,

It is always expected at one time of year.

I wish you were here...

But then I wish you never were.

No expectancy, no disappointment.

I lost the past last night

So yesterday I, ahem, deleted the wrong email address...and my old blog got deleted..... I actually believe that I signed into and deleted the right one...but whatev.

The good thing is that I was able to recover most of my posts from the google caches of them. Yay!

So I suppose I may repost some of them for the heck of having it here when I wanna go back and read them.

It's wierd, like losing a part of myself :-P Sounds a little intense, I know, but it is, kinda like when I dropped my cell phone in the water with all my numbers.... But luckily with that, even though it shut off from all the water, I was able to take the phone apart to dry it out and it worked after that. ...with this email/blog deletion though...not really the option to get it back...though I tried :) lol.